Diary of a mad fundraiser II

Fundraising for the Heartbeat project…. what a strange and not very comfortable feeling it is! I’ve been making my way on my own for years and I’ve never asked for money from anyone. I have been blessed, thank god, when at times I was sinking, angels came to my rescue, unasked and financed my sorry ass out of the fire. Now that I’m actually asking for money outright, in the back of my mind I’m screaming “Haven’t they done enough??” (meaning all the friends who have given me moral support throughout the years in addition to the ones who have bailed me out) or “This is so embarrassing! I’m such a loser!”. In fact, I had 2 people, both artists, yell at me for begging. One of them said that if I wasn’t such a loser I wouldn’t have to beg for money.

I came upon USA Projects by accident really. I saw a notice about them on another website. When I read about the possibilities I thought “Oh my god! I might actually be able to BREATHE for a little while!” The technique I want to explore further is one that I used for the exhibition I did up in Saratoga Springs, NY. Those paintings have such power, such movement, such LIFE! I’ve wanted to delve in to it further and thought that dance would be the perfect theme for what I want to do. But reality raises its ugly head and the bills must be paid. Soooo…. while I would never show and sell any paintings that don’t pass my muster, the work I have to do is much more commercial than what I want to do with “Heartbeat”. If I am successful and raise the goal amount of $9775.00 I could actually have a little breathing room to dive in to the process. God how good that would feel!

If you want to learn more about “Heartbeat”, please visit http://www.usaprojects.org/project/heartbeat



About monicalinvillefineart

I have been a working studio artist for over 30 years now. Self-taught, painting has been as much a part of my life as breathing. I learned by doing. Over 20 of those years have been spent on a little mountain in the Caribbean where my primary studio is located. I recently opened a second studio in Saratoga Springs, New York. I made the decision years ago that the best way to get people interested in coming to see my paintings was to simply be the best painter I could possibly be. Easel time. I put in a LOT of easel time. The gods have been good as I have been fortunate that in spite of my isolation from the art markets of the world, people still seek me out and find me. My work is now in collections around the world and students come to my mountain in search of instruction. My life has been good. I offer my world up to you as a refuge. I believe that is the purpose of my art.... it is a sanctuary for my soul while creating it and I would like it to be a sanctuary for yours while viewing it. I want to dance with you. I want to be part of your thoughts. I want to be part of your memory. Be delighted, please. Delight soothes the soul.
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2 Responses to Diary of a mad fundraiser II

  1. nellie montes says:

    The painting is beautiful. Good luck.

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