Fundraising for the Heartbeat project…. what a strange and not very comfortable feeling it is! I’ve been making my way on my own for years and I’ve never asked for money from anyone. I have been blessed, thank god, when at times I was sinking, angels came to my rescue, unasked and financed my sorry ass out of the fire. Now that I’m actually asking for money outright, in the back of my mind I’m screaming “Haven’t they done enough??” (meaning all the friends who have given me moral support throughout the years in addition to the ones who have bailed me out) or “This is so embarrassing! I’m such a loser!”. In fact, I had 2 people, both artists, yell at me for begging. One of them said that if I wasn’t such a loser I wouldn’t have to beg for money.
I came upon USA Projects by accident really. I saw a notice about them on another website. When I read about the possibilities I thought “Oh my god! I might actually be able to BREATHE for a little while!” The technique I want to explore further is one that I used for the exhibition I did up in Saratoga Springs, NY. Those paintings have such power, such movement, such LIFE! I’ve wanted to delve in to it further and thought that dance would be the perfect theme for what I want to do. But reality raises its ugly head and the bills must be paid. Soooo…. while I would never show and sell any paintings that don’t pass my muster, the work I have to do is much more commercial than what I want to do with “Heartbeat”. If I am successful and raise the goal amount of $9775.00 I could actually have a little breathing room to dive in to the process. God how good that would feel!
If you want to learn more about “Heartbeat”, please visit http://www.usaprojects.org/project/heartbeat